I’ve never been one to discard spoilt or broken things. I always try to fix it to it’s original state, not wanting to let it go to waste. Believing that every thing and every one deserves a second chance at life, to do things better – to be better.
As was the case with my spaghetti bolognaise the previous night. I’ve added too much oregano to the sauce and the dish ended up bitter. No-one, except for myself, could find the courage to eat it – it wasn’t that bitter after all ... Thinking of all the time and effort I’ve put in to make the dish, I couldn’t let it go. I was determined to fix the taste. So I decided to let it stand over ’till the next evening – until I could buy the ingredients to fix it. In the end it still had a bitter aftertaste. But I simply couldn’t get myself to throw it in the rubbish, because now I’ve put too much in there to fix it – the ingredients was pricey, I had just too much to lose . . .
After a bit of contemplation and to my own and my son’s amazement I dumped everything in the bin! Realising that I’ve done all that I could to fix it, to make it better. And no matter how hard I tried to make it work, it would still just be that – bitter.
I’ve spent a great part of my life trying to fix things. My life today is the result of me trying to fix things. Never having the courage to let spoilt things go and to move on. I would spend all my energy and resources trying to make things right, trying to make it work, only ending up with a bitter aftertaste.
I’ve realised that, just as my spoilt spaghetti bolognaise, some things just belong in the bin. Some things are just not worth fixing, and that the only way for one to be happy and find peace is to let go. It’s important to let go while you can still make peace with your circumstances and more importantly, with yourself. Holding on to it will make it worse and leave you depleted, blaming yourself for the mistakes you made, struggling to forgive yourself for making it in the first place.
God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all we could ever ask or think (Ephesians 3: 20). But there are some things that He doesn’t want fixed. Some things He wants you to throw in the bin, to put behind you, to let go, for you to achieve what He has purposed for you. After all, it wasn’t his choice or plan for you to begin with.
So, today, whatever is broken in your life, whatever is spoilt, whatever leaves a bitter aftertaste, if God doesn’t fix it, neither should you. God’s grace is sufficient for us, in our weakness He gives as the grace and the strength to choose better and to be better. Stop trying to fix the unfixable, forgive yourself and let it go!